Goldilocks

As a writer I’ve been fumbling around trying to find the right “fit”.   I used to write just for me and then when my son was young I wrote a column for a local parenting magazine, but after a few years that lost it’s luster. I started back writing by taking writing courses :  fiction,  memoir,  word craft, creative non-fiction- hoping that one of these classes would create the “spark” .   I’ve joined a writing group that meets monthly as a support, workshop and sounding board with other struggling writers.   I’ve completed all class assignments, and pushed myself to produce something for the group each month, but I  just couldn’t shake that lost feeling- that squinchy face, head shaking – “no, that’s not it either”- reaction to most of what I’d been working on. 

 For several months I diligently worked on a fiction novel, but it kept coming out too cartoonish; I could create characters, even dialogue but had a hard time putting the plot into action.  My memoir start-ups were an awkward cross between boring and TMI. And I wasted a great deal of time and money on the ultimate procrastination vehicle- reading too many books on “how to” write.   

So I’ve been a writing wanderer, whining to my writing group, amassing an impressive transcript of writing courses, and compiling tons of half written “stuff”.  

Alas- I’m seeing a light –  a tiny, but slowly widening light down a dark tunnel, and miraculously as  I walk toward it, it  feels more and more “ok”.   Blogging is helping me clarify, solidy and quantify what and how I want to write. 

My interests are varied:  As a middle-aged, single mom of a teenage son, who runs three times a week as a member of a women’s running group, meditates daily, pays the bills as a project manager of a large delinquency contract, I’m grounded professionally and personally in personal development, but I’m lit up by outrageous humor, cynical politics, zombie movies, and big chocolate chip cookies.

Blogging seems to be the place -the soft,comfortable bed where I can stretch out and explore, rant and rave, maybe cry and laugh and most importantly connect to others !

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4 Responses

  1. I love your piece. Boy do I share your writer’s journey. Like you I’ve taken writing courses, gone to seminars and have several ‘pieces’ in various states of ‘unfinished’. Blogging does seem to be opening a promising door.

  2. Yes! The freedom in blogging is so under-rated. You can write ANYTHING here.

  3. Hey, I see myself on your post! I’ve been through all you said. I’m still struggling with these issues, but I’m slowly improving. Blogging has been a great outlet. If my writing is not perfect and my grammar lacks something that won’t be the end of the world. I can post and then go back and edit or even delete. Let’s save the money we spend on writing classes to eat ceviches!

  4. As someone desperately trying to live out my passion for writing and finally turning the home stretch on a novel that i’ve worked on intermittently for years (I will not say how much) I can truly relate

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